Well.... here I am! Hope you enjoy the journey!
I decided to begin documenting my journey while working toward my weight loss goals (and just life). I understand very well how discouraging trying to lose weight can be. There are any number of reasons people don't see results but the primary one seems to be inconsistency with exercise. It requires dedication. I can't stand doing the same thing over and over again. I get bored. It happens. My biggest problem was that I'm your typical impatient want to see immediate results NOW type of person and when I wasn't seeing those results in the mirror, it was very discouraging for me so I would just stop altogether.
As of February 2012, my weight was at 256 pounds. That's 106 pounds over my ideal weight! I looked in the mirror one morning and I hated the person staring back at me. That's when I decided to fully commit to making a change. I was going to fight to regain the confidence I had lost. I was going to escape the fat suit that was holding me back. Shopping for clothes had become a nightmare. We're large. We're already aware of our size and I will NEVER understand why larger people get tortured with bright colors and hideous patterns on clothes. I don't know about everyone else, but I sure don't want to wear anything that's going to draw further attention to my size. I'm already punishing myself pretty good on my own. I don't want or need the clothing industy to help with that. Finding jeans I like that fit comfortably had all but become impossible. I don't want skinny jeans but I don't want the bootcut that hugs my calves either. Bootcut seems to be the only way a size 18 and up can get jeans.
I'd taken to trying to hide from the world. That's not who I am. I used to enjoy going out and having a good time at a movie with friends or out to dinner. I used to enjoy dressing up. I'm a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl. Always have been and always will be but I want to be comfortable and look good to. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I will like who I see in the mirror again. It will be a tough journey, but anything worth doing is never easy.
Watch out world. Here I come.
As of February 2012, my weight was at 256 pounds. That's 106 pounds over my ideal weight! I looked in the mirror one morning and I hated the person staring back at me. That's when I decided to fully commit to making a change. I was going to fight to regain the confidence I had lost. I was going to escape the fat suit that was holding me back. Shopping for clothes had become a nightmare. We're large. We're already aware of our size and I will NEVER understand why larger people get tortured with bright colors and hideous patterns on clothes. I don't know about everyone else, but I sure don't want to wear anything that's going to draw further attention to my size. I'm already punishing myself pretty good on my own. I don't want or need the clothing industy to help with that. Finding jeans I like that fit comfortably had all but become impossible. I don't want skinny jeans but I don't want the bootcut that hugs my calves either. Bootcut seems to be the only way a size 18 and up can get jeans.
I'd taken to trying to hide from the world. That's not who I am. I used to enjoy going out and having a good time at a movie with friends or out to dinner. I used to enjoy dressing up. I'm a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl. Always have been and always will be but I want to be comfortable and look good to. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I will like who I see in the mirror again. It will be a tough journey, but anything worth doing is never easy.
Watch out world. Here I come.
